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david7 blog 2003
december 11, 2003: how to say ‘fuck you’ in 11 different languages First, the current administration went to the un for ‘permission‘ to attack iraq; the un said ‘cool your jets, georgie,’ so george said 'fuck you’, and attacked anyway. when, after his declaration that the war was over, things began to drag on, with more people getting killed every day, george went back to the world and started twisting arms to force some help from a few nations that he had told to fuck off just a short time before. all of the powers who actually had the ability to help said, ‘not after the way you told us to get stuffed a few months back, you’re stuck in your own shit now.’ in order to keep this myth of a ‘coalition’ alive for the idiot populace that voted for him, george beats up a few marginal or poor nations to get on board the list of supporters. Britain (despite huge public opposition at home), australia (despite huge public opposition at home and strong doubts in its parliament), were already in. poland is probably the next biggest participant in terms of actual troop involvement, denmark (sent a medical team), slovenia (sent chemical warfare technicians to kuwait but not to iraq), ukraine (sent a combat battalion to kuwait with the understanding that they would not go into iraq), this list is endless, honduras, palau (which has no military at all), rwanda. who believes all of this load of shit we are being told about 'broad worldwide support' of george's stupid war? So after assembling this 'broad coalition or partners' by hook or crook, mostly the later, george decides that it’s time to dick the rest of the world one more time: Wolfowitz announces that the contracts for rebuilding iraq will not be awarded to the most influential nations, germany (‘fuck you,’ says george), france (‘fuck you,’ says george), russia (‘fuck you,’ says george), who have the expertise and the cash and the power needed to get the demolished iraq back on its feet will not be eligible to bid on the iraqi reconstruction projects.. this ban apparently expends even to canada, our biggest trade partner, and the nation whose soldiers we unapologetically bombed and killed in afghanistan now, instead of just the invading army, we are the morally and fiscally bankrupt business managers of iraq as well. (‘fuck you, too,’ says george). There is less than a year to get this bunch of gangsters and hooligans out of the seats of power in washington, so let’s not blow it again by letting the court decide who has been elected. with any luck our former friends around the world will be so happy to see this jackass crew out of power that we might restore a bit of normalcy to international diplomacy before it is really too late. ‘fuck you, george.’ december 4, 2003: paris who? Look, I don’t read ‘people’, I don’t watch ‘e!’, and I don’t hang out in newsgroups for the adolescent brained adult males of the straight world. so after a few weeks of not giving a shit about who paris hilton was, nor about when her show would open, I finally found one newsworthy philosophical note to add to the controversy. from cnn’s jeannie moos man-on-the street interviews, one guy has exactly the right opinion of her new show: “I mean, we’ve seen her naked; after you’ve seen a chick naked, who cares what she does with pigs?” december 2, 2003: all for one? If the republicans and their religious right can get behind a fuckhead failure like gw bush and get his sorry ass elected, why can’t the democrats get behind one guy, if not to get some schmoe democrat elected, then at least to get a dangerous jackass like bush out of office? Ok, I’ll admit that the current crop of democrat candidates so far looks like a big bunch of mealy-mouthed bumblers: Joe lieberman looks and sounds like every family’s weird old uncle, who sits on the back porch telling inane tales of days gone by that are utterly meaningless and muddled by the confusion of senility. Dick gephardt is too white; he may get the albino vote, but nobody else can get beyond his frightening lack of pigmentation and his even more frightening lack of fresh ideas and lack of enthusiasm for them. people that are translucent scare those of us who are not. john edwards has a few things going for him: he is young and better looking than the rest of the gang, but this will never get him past the fact that he was a trial lawyer all of his professional life; a used car salesman has more c99CCEEibility than a trial lawyer. politicians and lawyers have a long history together; they both can lie with equal facility. carol mosley-braun, or carol braun, or carol mosley is female, so that gets a few votes, but as a winning candidate? don’t give up your day job, ms. braun. howard dean is an enigma to me; I am not sure what people find so enchanting about him, other than the fact that he can say, ‘I never supported the war against iraq’ (then again, he was governor of vermont, not a congressman who could actually affect the decisions that were made allowing gw bush to attack that country, so why this wins points is beyond me). sort of like me saying, ‘I never started a house fire’ (then again, I am not a fireman, but I should still get equal c99CCEEit as those who really did put the fire out). he is a plodding, dull, uninspi99CCEE speaker. Al sharpton is an interesting, refreshing presence. he has a snowball’s chance of doing anything, but the old angry, belligerent, whitey-baiting al is apparently gone, and has been replaced by an al that directs his anger at the real opponent (as opposed to his fellow candidates who direct their weak, simpering barbs at each other). he is the only candidate that shows any sense of spontaneous and unrehearsed humor, but he still lacks the folksy yet erudite wisdom that clinton used as the underpinning to his wit. at least he knows who the real enemy in this election is. john kerry? conventional wisdom says that he should have been the front-runner from the start: an experienced senator, a massachusetts liberal, a war hero, a potential jfk clone. but he is so inc99CCEEibly dull, he sounds like a pedantic, lecturing, junior high school principal when he speaks; he rarely smiles, and when he does he looks like his next words will be ‘ehhh, what’s up, doc?’ gravitas is one thing, john, but this moribund demeanor is appropriate only for a mortician. get some sleep and hire a makeup man. dennis who? krunch-nik? pachinko? khrushchev-itch? anyway, dennis, you snicker and giggle at inappropriate times, and you squeak when you talk your silly talk, and nobody is ready for mickey mouse in the white house. think you can win in any of the first four primaries? ha! I’ll give you 6 to 1 odds. your statement about marijuana is the ultimate double cop out. even worse than ‘but I didn't inhale’. admittedly ohio has a better than average position on medical marijuana laws, but that does not cover up his disingenuous answer. you are a waste of airtime. And wes clark has blunde99CCEE a few times so far, but he can recover. he is vehement, persuasive, and articulate enough to run gw bush off the stage in a one-to-one debate. it would be like winston churchill debating dan quayle, a slaughter. he has military c99CCEEibility, which shoots gw’s one potential idiot-american-voter trump card full of holes. but as long as he is only one among seven clowns, he blends into the wallpaper. he is good when we get out of the sound-bite mentality, but with so many voices clamoring for meager attention above the thunderously dull hoof beats of the herd, a sound-bite is all we will ever get. So what do we get with all these candidates? ‘a choice,’ you say? this is a choice? this is overkill, simple 99CCEEuplication. except for clark and sharpton, every one of this bunch of idiots is the same white-bread, say-nothing, do-nothing politician that we have begun to expect from the democrat party. a position so thin and so middle of the road that they pose no wind resistance at all. get three fourths of them to sit down so we can have a serious focus to this campaign. How do we dump most of this crew of losers and back one guy who will defeat the court-packing, rights-stomping, economy-crushing tactics of gw bush? some internal resolve on the part of the dnc might help. in an effort to be the ultimate populist, egalitarian group, it has neglected to launch any focused support for a winner in years. clinton won is spite of the muddle of ideas at the dnc. and if some off-the-wall spoiler like ralph nader pokes his one-issue head into the fray, we are screwed again. If the republicans can set a side a few petty internal squabbles to get an idiot like gw elected, then the democrats should be able to get a few of these jackasses to sit down and shut the fuck up long enough to get someone into the white house. I have registe99CCEE every year as an unaffiliated voter; I have a thousand differences with the spineless, politically-correct democrats as well as with the blustering, boorish, short-sighted republicans. but until we get gw, cheney, and their justice department and proposed list of judges and george’s own personal war out of the way, I’ll tolerate a few other wimpy ideas from the politically-correct democrats. if we can’t have a pro-anything candidate, can we at least agree on an anti-george candidate? they are far too dangerous to have in power. november 27, 2003: birds of a feather Happy bird-stuffing day (or face-stuffing day, as you prefer. I won't pursue that theme.) just a brief thought for those in office, like gw bush, john ashcroft, ex-justice (or is the term ‘in-justice’) roy moore, school superintendent don martin and thousands of other major and minor figures and their followers: Our founders came to this country to be rid of a state sanctioned church, not to establish another one. Chew on that piece of wisdom for your holidays, boys (and no porking that main course while wifey’s back is turned.) november 18, 2003: quit throwing fairy dust, this ain’t neverneverland, peter pan… Today’s news has two big items: first, the police have crashed in and raided michael jackson's ‘neverland’ ranch in california. second, the massachusetts supreme court says that gay marriage is constitutional in that state. The first item is just a humorous side note on the curiosities of life: mj is certainly one of life's most mystifying curiosities, and really now, does it surprise anybody? a guy who slept in a hyperbaric oxygen chamber for a while, collected john merrick’s necrotized remains, lives in a massive combination zoo/carnival midway, slept with a bed full of twelve year old boys, and had plastic surgery till his nose fell off.(I didn’t even mention his brief marriage to lisa marie presley; that is too freaky, even for michael.) So what are the police looking for? who the fuck cares. it might be his former proboscis, it might be another skeleton in his rather sizable closet (after all, merrick’s bones are stashed on the place in one closet or another), it might be semen stains on a backyard cache of buried underwear or on his pet zebra’s ass. nothing can shock me now; I saw michael opening the nasdaq in 2001, looking for all the world like morticia addams. The second item, while at first it seems a bigger story, may really be even more shallow than the “neverland” plotline. I set out to write that they were both, at their heart, equally meaningless news blurbs, but I rethought that theme. jackson, as insignificant as he is in the grand scheme of things, might be marginally more important than the massachusetts decision. so what are we celebrating about this new found judicial equality? beats me. massachusetts is arguably the most roman catholic state in the union, the vatican’s biggest branch office this side of el salvador (just count the number of impaled alter boys in boston and one can easily determine that fact). so how do I explain this dichotomy between the state court and the state church in massachusetts? it will be a bigger ‘schism’ than was the threatened episcopal/anglican divorce (divorce? recall henry viii? they do that divorce thing in the anglican church)that gene robinson’s election as bishop was supposed to cause; the threats of a huge split were nothing more than a quick fart of opinion in the ecclesiastical wind. today's steaming dog pile of opinion will probably rewrite the massachusetts state constitution, since there is apparently no other way to obviate the court's ruling. this fatuous argument will be with us for a while, trust me. The court almost has it right: it basically says that the church, any church, can go fuck itself and marry or not marry whoever it wants to;. civil unions fall under the equal protection provisions of the massachusetts constitution. (choir boys fall under the nearest priest until they can kick and claw their way out.) americans in general are neither as deliberative nor as perspicacious as the court: we do not take months to consider the precedents and fine points of one issue, we go by news-bites, old habits and superstitions. inertia is the most powerful force in the physical universe (ok, maybe gravity or entropy eventually will overcome inertia but not without great difficulty); inertia is equally powerful in human behavior. it is easer to do as we have always done than to change direction by 2 degrees. It seems that no-fucking-body, be it f99CCEE phelps or elizabeth birch, nobody gets the point here: get the fuck over the word ‘marriage,’ you breeder-clone dickheads, and think ‘civil rights’. get this in your heads for once: “marriage” does not mean “equality”. We will lose every time if we keep using the word ‘marriage;’ but we might win a few small victories if we simply change the nomenclature of the items in debate. it does not matter what father/reverend/rabbi/imam whatshisfuck says, or does, or blesses, or condemns. it does make a huge bloody difference what our legislators, and executives, and mostly our judges and justices do. I have lived my entire life quite happily, and will die quite nicely, thank you, without the blessing of any church. but the prejudices and the inequities of the legal system in this country have caused me no end of grief. If gays can’t get the idea that religious marriage and civil rights are separate things, then we probably do not deserve to demand amore correct interpretation of freedoms under our constitution. most straights don’t get it, apparently most gays do not get it either, judging by their giddy glee at the ludicrous debates over the ‘marriage ‘ issue. I had two friends in atlanta some years ago who decided to ‘marry’. it was sanctioned by no legal authority, it was theater, pure theater. they got matching tuxes, hi99CCEE a caterer, booked a hall, sent engraved invitations, and registe99CCEE at bloomingdale’s bridal registry. (I could just gag all over again).fantasies can be fun if they do not turn your stomach or create big cultural lies. but that marriage did nothing at all to advance our rights or status, and neither will any religious marriage in massachusetts or elsewhere. if we let this debate degenerate into the camp and vaudeville of religious ceremony, we have castrated ourselves with a smile. time to quit childish fantasies that everything will be all right if we just wish it were so. just think of lovely things, and your heart… poof! no more wishing, peter pan. The grand cultural lie is that gays all need and want to be some sort of bent clone of heterosexual married normalcy. bullshit! I do not need women for companionship and sex, I do not need the self-promoting syllogisms of some organized church, but I do want, need, and deserve equal legal status to that of the male/females couples, married or not, out there in the us. shove this church marriage stuff back up your asses, boys and girls; if we let anyone equate a phony religious ceremony with constitutional legal status, then we are fucked forever by the only system that could protect us. november 7, 2003 Well, gee! am I embarrassed! another cam operator, whose site I really like, was kind enough to mention me. so even though I didn’t think if it first, I feel that I must mention his site, too, more for the quality of the site than the fact the he gave my site a friendly plug. drop in to bob and john’s place and visit these guys. I spoke to bob a few days ago and he was really sweet. (and I think he is quite handsome too, but that is not really the point here.) as I say elsewhere on this site, one of my cam inspirations was the now-defunct seanpatricklive.com site. if any of you remember it, it was a cam view into the everyday life of this guy and his visitors, houseguests, etc. bob’s page is more like this than mine will ever be. it is a classy invitation into his house and his life; it is not a sex site per se, whatever happens, you see. the design is really nice, and there is a subtle ichthyological thread through the pages. november 6, 2003 Hi friends, This may sound petty to a few of you guys, but it is a matter of considerable importance to me in my efforts to keep this site free and available to the public. I am hono99CCEE that you enjoy the site enough it suggest it to various webcam ‘list’ or ‘directory’ operators, but frankly some of these folks are less than scrupulous in who they add to their list of websites. I walk on one side of a very fine legal line with this site and if I am associated with a site that has less cautious polices, then I can get screwed when one of their other listings steps over the line into clearly dangerous territory. these guys are here to make money for themselves. an increase in viewers, while a minor ego boost, does not earn me any money; it costs me more to feed the signal to more viewers. I have had two bitch fights with two different shitty web operators this week for including my site in their lists without my consent and without my permission to use photos and materials from my site. So, if you want to suggest my site for inclusion in a webcam list anywhere, please take a second to notify me first so that I can look into the list and see if I it seems legit or just another pop-up laden porn monger out to steal your money. my only other option is to join a membership-only service like badpuppy, which means the end of a lot of free access to many of my viewers. thanks, david
october 28, 2003: sickening things that groups do with each other These are somewhat distressing times, politically. I am not talking about the iraq war itself (which sucks) or the economy (which sucks) or unemployment (which sucks) or a few dozen other things (which all suck). I am talking about one brand of christianity getting into the sack with one branch of political hacks to feed off each other's sickness and fear mongering and desire to keep control even at the cost of liberty. a private ‘christian’ school kicks out a kid who has the guts to admit to this virulently prejudiced audience that he is gay. the fbi has been forced to protect new hampshire’s episcopal bishop robinson from death threats by religious fundamentalists. terry schiavo’s future is being manipulated by a fucking Bunch of political ideologues for their own right–wing constituency and the re-election money that gushes from them. Am I just babbling incoherently, or is there a thread that ties all this desultory discourse together? In the 50’s 60’s and 70’s it was the major theme in american life that we were better off than those in communist nations, since we had freedom and they did not: freedom to worship (or not worship) as we choose, freedom to exchange ideas and speak our minds openly, freedom to live a life without excessive government interference, as long as we did not threaten others and paid our taxes. So how did we end up here? in today's america? here in mr. rogers’ most horrible neighborhood? can you say right-wing religious conservatives? can you say ‘bush administration’? can you merge the two concepts, christian zealotry and neo-nazi politics, and say 'john ashcroft'? I’ll admit that the expelled high-school student attended a private, so-called ‘christian’ school, not a public school; but in the state of florida (little brother bush’s washington-clone domain), there is no protection on the basis of sexual orientation for private schools. of course, this would not be tolerated if it applied to blacks or (god forbid in florida) hispanics, or women. the confluence of conservative christianity and government sees no problems with subverting the rights of a specific segment of the population. New hampshire has a reputation as a fiercely independent state that will fight any disenfranchising outside influence to the death. so we will have to see what happens: either new hampshire episcopal churches will support gene robinson, possibly facing a schism from the national or the international communion, or some wacko, gun-toting, born-again asshole from west buttfuck, wyoming will blow robinson away. robinson and partner and family aside, which will be the worse on the nation and how the fuck will our commandant-in-chief, georgie-boy, and the ultimate national prosecutor, ashcroft, address this in the media storm? (can’t you just hear pat robertson now? smirking, squeezing the syllables through his teeth, ‘of course we cannot justify murder, but this unabashed assault on the sanctity of the church by those pushing the decadent agenda of the homosexual lobby was intolerable and had to be challenged.’ and the talking heads just say politely, ‘thank you for you comments’.) And in the ultimate indignity, jeb bush and the florida legislature (read: randall terry and the right-to-lifers)—“wait a minute,” you say, “aren’t they supposed to stop abortions and try to overturn roe v. wade? how did they get into this mess?”—are screwing around with medical decisions. the government of florida passes a law that forces an invasive medical procedure on the protoplasm that was a human being until 13 years ago. just stop for a minute and think about the implications of this: you are healthy except for a cavity in one tooth; the government says that you must have it filled right now. you have a birthmark on your face; the government says that you must have it removed now. you are an uncircumcised adult; the government says that you must get your foreskin lopped off. your sister and hubby do not want any kids; the government says that she must undergo artificial insemination. all of this is theoretical since bush and the florida boys were not only egregious in their hubris; they were also cowardly bastards: this statute was set up to expire as soon as it was enacted and applied to schiavo. kind of like a bratty child who knocks on your door then runs; just to be a pain in the ass. they knew that it would not stand up to any sort of judicial scrutiny, and they did not want it hanging around to fuck up a reelection bid for big brother in 2004. (accusations of unconstitutional behavior can mess up one's image pretty bad. remember nixon?) Have the freedom-hating, mind controlling communists suddenly taken up residence in washington (and tallahassee)? sort of smells that way, except the leftist communists have been supplanted by right wing neo-nazis. I am at a loss as to what to do, though. so far everyone who might oppose preston bush’s grandson seems so totally gutless, limp, and utterly bland that they almost make you think that george knows how to speak properly. look at the choice we have: kerry (I didn’t evade the draft and grew up to be a millionaire), edwards (my daddy was a poor mill worker, but I grew up to be a millionaire),kucinich (I can get us out of iraq in 15 minutes), dean (I didn't vote for war 'cuz I wasn’t able to), sharpton (I didn’t vote for war and i'm black), braun (I didn’t vote for war, i'm black and i'm a woman, top that!), clark (I know more about war than kerry, and supported it then, but now I don’t now), gephardt (i’m the whitest liberal up here, so white that i’m almost as transparent as my rhetoric), and lieberman (i’m calm and reasoned, and if you do not snore during my speeches we'll get along fine, just do not suggest removing the settlements; zionist terrorists are better than islamist terrorists). My modest proposal? elect harvey fierstein; at least his voice and presence and wardrobe would scare the polecat politicians and the our-way-or-the-highway christians and the terrorists to apoplectic fits. he just might solve a few problems.
october 15, 2003: spam, spam, spam, spam... One of the advantages of a very small site like this is that I am able to give my server logs a very close look. it is also one of the biggest headaches. I don’t really have a lot of big problems, but I do notice things that seem a bit odd, like a user who stays logged into my live cam for a few hours while I have a sign up that says, "hey, wake up; I will not be back for three days." So in case some of these addresses belong to spammers or other thieves, I have been blocking quite a few of them. however, dhcp addressing means that users are often rotated between a whole range of available ip addresses, and are not assigned a single permanent ip address. so I often must take down a small range of addresses. sometimes I can get by with some odd port filtering, but usually not. If I have inadvertently blocked your access because you share an isp with a few spammers or bandwidth thieves, drop me a note and I’ll try to correct the situation. but adding to the mountain of spam out there with spoofed addresses is not a practice that I want to have anything to do with. so I will keep blocking suspicious ip addresses. october 11, 2003: cum again, your holiness? you didn't really say that did you? It is good to know that the high-minded, world-renowned scientists at the vatican are helping us fuck bareback without worry.
Since all gay catholics are going to hell anyway for being gay, the condom stricture means nothing to them at all to them philosophically, and now that the ecclesiastical epidemiologist cardinal trujillo tells us that condoms do not help prevent the spread if hiv, we can safely fuck our brains out without any need for precautions whatsoever. Of course, this tidbit of science comes to us from the same bunch of folks who spent 1500 years telling us that the sun revolves around the earth. and a few hund99CCEE years telling everybody that the earth was flat. So what do we conclude from this (if we exclude the oh-so-faint possibility that the entire realm of organized religion is a class composed of hypocritical, money grubbing assholes, who use the trust of unthinking, unquestioning, brainless people to promote their own control of the greater financial assets of the known world)? perhaps the only conclusion is that it is sanctified to keep killing people who are alive today, as long as we keep churning out unwanted, often ill, ill-fed, ill-ca99CCEE-for infants to overpopulate the earth tomorrow. after all, if the pope has an untapped revenue source for future exploitation, he wants to protect it. = september 23, 2003: duh september 19, 2003: homeland insecurity by clifford krauss The big deal here is not ‘gay marriage’ per se; I frankly think that that marriage, gay or straight, is sort of pointless anyway, now that everybody seems to think that a 55% divorce rate and a general tendency to infidelity is acceptable. But I do get highly pissed off when our government effectively sanctions one purely religious rite—I prefer to call it a superstitious rite, since religion has its basis only in the feeble minds of people who need something of fantasy to guide them in proper behavior—to sanction a religious rite by granting favo99CCEE legal and financial status to it. So we have time, and the manpower, and (mostly) the will to do this border interdiction of two married queers, but cannot track a bunch of dangerous intruders into this country who bomb the place to smithereens and kill thousands. I guess if the terrorists don't get me, the border patrol will. hmmm…what could be next? numbers tattooed on the wrists? quarantine? (it was proposed once before, until a bunch of guys tried to climb the walls of the cdc offices in atlanta and sca99CCEE the sleepy bureaucrats shitless.) time to kick some electoral butt…what was that address again? 1600 pennsylvania avenue? september 6, 2003: Hi again, just a technical update this time no socio-political fulminations. I have a shower cam working now; again there will be no schedule. it will just replace the other cam image when I am playing in the shower and feel like inviting you to join me. (frankly I do not have enough bandwidth to run this live video stream on three cams at once, so I just have to swap from desk, to bed, to shower and back to keep the frame rate up. the alternative would be a very slow 10-second refresh, which just does not get me off.) I also have added a message board under the contact page if you want to leave me a thought or two, or make a couple of requests and suggestions.
still have some still photos to edit for the site but damned hard to find the time. and now for something completely different (and a bit unpleasant) Here is my deal though: aol, unlike the rest of the internet universe, uses some vastly non-standard technology to keep their aging set of over-stressed servers and routers gasping for air with one nostril barely above water. anyhow, aol's goofy caching server system really can screw around with everybody’s enjoyment of my live stream video when the connection gets busy. nobody does this wacky junk, except aol and a few third-world isp's. so at times, if I have to keep the service running, I’ll give precedence to the most users, and I will feel no qualms at all about temporarily 99CCEEucing access to aol servers. this is not anything against you personally; it is against your stupid isp. So get off the cyber-titanic while your feet are not too soggy; dump aol and get a real isp. august 30, 2003: clean up my act So that is pretty easy to fix, just a matter of bucks. I’ll try to get that going by next weekend. Sound is still in the works, but it is a bit more complex. I’ll get to it sooner or later. I just have not had a lot of time lately; been fucking with some shitty registrar about domain name registrations of others sites. If you ever need a web host or want to register a domain name, stay the fuck away from elevatedhosting.com and assurancehosting.com. they have reliable servers, but they also have the worst, absolutely the world's worst service and support; they just do not give a fuck once they have your money. takes legal action to get some asshole’s attention. august 26, 2003: twist of faith first, the jackass justice roy moore from alabama, who seeks to promote himself as the sole arbiter of faith and law in the us, gets stripped of his title and job, and breaks federal and state laws in order to promote his narrow corruption of faith above all other humans on the planet. Then, some fuckhead guys in robes, who hold church services in a bankrupt milwaukee bar (sounds like a capital idea to me), kill a kid in the name of driving out ‘evil spirits’, by suffocating the kid, holding him down and 'praying' over him. the bashing baptists are in jail now. And then in a dark twist of fate, the former-father, p99CCEEator-priest, pederast-prelate, victimizing-vicar john geoghan was beaten to death in his prison cell, not by one of his many abused acolytes, but by a simple fag-hating 99CCEEneck. If there is any justice at all, geoghan’s murderer and the roughneck reverends from milwaukee will end up in the same prison, where roy moore will hold kangaroo court and sentence them all to being pressed under a 2-ton granite monument to the ten commandments. these are not quite men of giles corey's legendary character, though. I wonder if god can blush in embarrassment? august 24, 2003: just don't tell me It does, however, sort of indirectly bring up a separate subject. As I have met more fun guys out in the general world of cams and cyber-whatever; it's mostly been fun. I do not intend this polemic as an insult or judgment on anyone (certainly not anyone who is bisexual and who is open about it with everybody concerned). far be it from me to make judgments. but it seems that more and more of my cam visitors are men with wives and families that are supposedly in the dark to the whole gay-cam-voyeur thing. or gay anything (except your cousin sarah’s faggy, fey son, the artist.). It is really none of my business at all how another lives his life. but after a while, this sort of tacit participation in a type of warped, techno-cyber-cheating-on-your-wife crap starts to make me feel a bit cheap and slutty—not even like a ‘kept man,’ god knows I am not being ‘kept’ at all by this cam activity. I just feel a bit used and cheapened(or does the fact that I get naked and jerk off on camera make me an unpaid whore by default anyway?) I resent a few things about this whole set up: you and yours help perpetuate this disgusting system of politico-religious legalism in the us that screws gays out of basic legal necessities, while you get them by arranging a religiously sanctioned marriage. shove the faith-based crap up your butt; I just want to be able to leave my belongings to a lover or have him make healthcare decisions for me if I am too zapped do it for myself. I do not want any shit about civil marriages or domestic partnerships, since these are rarely available in the us either. the fact that you—for whatever reason: sex, affection, fear—married someone of the opposite sex gives you more legal status than I will ever live to see. "we hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal. (unless you touch another boy's cock and enjoy it.)" So watch my cam if you want to, and enjoy it. but from here on out, if you have a wife and kids at home that you think are fooled by your clandestine behavior, just do not tell me about it, ok? is that fair enough? you guys have been dumping this ‘don’t ask, don’t tell’ shit on me for my entire life, long before clinton and powell coined the term. (condescendingly: "it is ok to be gay; just don’t do anything about it".). so now I am reversing it: just shut up about your wife and kids if you have a set stashed at home. I appreciate your candor with me, but I’d prefer that you be honest with your wife. I am not a gay zealot; I just prefer not to have to vicariously participate in your own personal duplicity. august 20, 2003: if you are looking for an adult webhost, e-mail me and I can suggest a few (and definitely suggest a few that you do not want to get mixed up with). august 15, 2003: I’ve been toying with a new chat script, but I am not happy with it yet so the chat will stay the same for now. hope all the blacked-out northeasterners get juiced up again soon. I miss a lot of my new york viewers! cum back soon guys! | ||||||||
